Angelicsight Newsletter #9
 
+ More of the same old thing . . . .
+ Turn up the volume . . . .
 
+ More of the same old thing . . . .
 
There are times when clients say to me, "How did my life turn out this way? How is it that I dated/married such a loser or ended up in a career that I don't like?  Why is it that my friends are so needy?  Why can't I just have the life I want?  We can always have the life we want.  We only have to choose it.
 
Our lives are the sum of choices.  We choose to marry that man or woman because we think we will be able to change them or that their commitment to us will make us happy.  We choose a career because we think the money will provide us a sense of safety, but then we aren't happy with what we do all day.  We choose to have our friends' needs be more important than ours and wonder why our own needs don't get met.  We want to travel, but choose not to.  We want to go back to school, but choose to skip it because it's too time-consuming.  We want to make new friends, but choose to stay home instead of attending a social event.  We want to meet a new love interest, but choose to not do "the work" to bring us into the right alignment.
 
Take a moment and think of a portion or portions of your life you are unhappy with.  Now go back to the beginning and find that one choice that set your life in the direction of that decision and see how you ended up where you are today.  Recently a client came for a reading and said to me that he was interested in a woman that he worked with.  He said that this woman did not pay him any attention and acted as though he didn't exist.  He wanted to know what he could do to get her eyes to turn towards him.  I told him that that wasn't possible.  I suggested he should consider dating the other woman who was around him.  He said she was just a friend.  I told him that she would be a good match for him.  I added that this 'friend' was much better suited for him energetically and emotionally and that it was no accident she had come into his life.  He didn't want to date the 'friend'.  He wanted the first woman, the one who didn't know he existed.  He chose in that moment to not pursue dating the friend and passed up on a wonderful opportunity to grow, experience love and have a wonderful partner. 
 
The most amazing thing about the universe is that it adjusts to whatever choices we make.  This client chose not to pursue this relationship and the universe adjusted so he'd have more of the same.  In the end, until this client chooses to go beyond his 'type' he will continue to get the result of his choices:   distant women who don't know he exists.
 
In January of this year, a woman came for a reading and wanted to know about a promotion at her job.  I saw the promotion coming, but didn't feel it would make her happy.  I told her that I could see her working with kids and teaching.  She said, "I'd love to work with kids, but there's no money in that."  I said, "Yes, the money is less than you'd like, but you could tutor or run special programs for kids."  I added, "You can always ask the universe for more money too.  There is an unlimited supply of abundance for us as long as we choose to ask for it."  She disagreed with me.  She showed up at the psychic fair a few weeks ago and asked why the promotion hadn't happened yet.  I told her, "You are wavering.  You want the money, but aren't sure you want the responsibilities.  You need to be clear about why you want it and if you want it."  I added, "You are sending mixed signals to the universe.  You need to make a choice.  You need to choose that you want the position, the money, the responsibilities and all it has to offer or you choose that you don't want it.  It's hanging in the balance now because you can't decide."  I could tell in her heart that she really wanted to work with kids, but wouldn't allow that choice for herself.  In the end, she'll commit to a job that she doesn't want because the money is there.  The money becomes more important than doing what makes your soul thrive.  These choices are a sad but realistic part of what goes on everyday all over the world. 
 
Why is it that we don't choose what is best for us?  Why is it that we can't trust enough in Spirit to take that leap of faith?  Why is it that we make the choice that only ends up disappointing us over and over again?  Living outside of the box or your comfort zone is not something a lot of us even consider doing.  To many of us, it seems almost taboo and yet I can tell you from my own experiences that the choices that sometimes seem so outside of our 'norm' are the ones that bring us the most joy and change our lives.
 
When I was graduating college, I received a job offer to start work almost immediately.  I had exactly nine days in between college graduation and my first day of work.  I had put in the time, energy and money into my college education.  I was going to graduation, right?   No!  I chose to do something with those nine days that I had been wanting to do my whole life.  I choose to travel to Egypt all by myself.  Yes, it sounds crazy, but I knew the universe had given me this window of opportunity for a reason.  Should I go to see the pyramids and the Sphinx?  I had been longing to see them since I was a little girl.  Should I go and experience the pomp, glory and circumstance of college graduation?  For me the choice was a no brainer.  Egypt here I come.  Less than 24 hours after finishing my final exam, I boarded an overnight flight to Cairo.  Egypt changed my life in so many ways.  I will never forget the first time I saw the pyramids and the Sphinx peeking out from behind the buildings of Cairo.  I was in a taxicab on my way to my hotel and I was speechless!  A few hours later while standing at the base of the Sphinx, I was awed.  Egypt allowed me the opportunity to be reunited with a culture that felt so much like home to me.  I had embarked on the adventure of a lifetime.  To this day, Egypt lives on inside me and where I live throughout Egyptian scrolls, incense, crystals and photos.  Going to Egypt was a choice that was definitely outside the box, but one I'll never regret.  Egypt was only the beginning.  Since then I've traveled to South America, Mexico and Europe.  All of those choices have been wonderful blessings that have fulfilled my life in many ways.
 
While it's easy to always make the 'safest' choice, the choices with the most risk are usually more satisfying and rewarding on many levels.  Many times the choices that involve risk enable us to connect with joy and happiness.  Believing that you'll be caught by the angels when you jump off the cliff is a true test of faith.  Living it - - well that's what joy is all about. 
 
+ Turn up the volume
 
Recently a new client came to the psychic fair for a reading.  Her main concern during our fifteen minute session was whether she'd reunite with her ex-boyfriend.  I told her that I could see that he currently had another woman in his life, but that there was a window of opportunity in which she could go back and start dating him again.  When I told her that she'd realize about 1-2 weeks into reuniting with him that nothing had changed with regard to this man and that she'd be frustrated, she got annoyed.  From this point on, the tone of the reading changed.  She placed her arms across her chest, shifted her posture and then I could see the red sparks flying in her energy field.  Not happy with the information she'd just heard, she persisted.  "Why would she be frustrated with him?"  I told her that she'd see that nothing had changed with this man.  He was the same person she'd broken-up with previously and that the same issues, the same drama, the same disappointments, the same dynamic were still there.  Nothing was different.  Nothing had changed. 
 
She got more annoyed and said to me that she felt this was the man she was supposed to be with in this lifetime.  I told her that there was another man she would meet down the road after she healed from this relationship who was much better suited for her.  She wasn't interested in another man, nor did she care to heal from the relationship because she wanted to be with her ex.  She said she felt a strong connection to him and had hopes they would someday marry.  I told her I didn't see that coming to fruition.  At the end of the reading I told her to go back to him if that was what she truly wanted, BUT that Spirit 'turns up the volume' on us when we don't get a lesson.  She left annoyed, but informed. 
 
Why would someone come for a reading to get clarity and then get annoyed because they don't get the answer they want?  In this situation, this woman wanted me to tell her that yes all has changed and that her ex is now the partner she wants him to be.  She wanted to be reassured that the relationship will be different this time around.   Later in the day, the thought of this woman and her anger reappeared in my mind.  I knew she'd go back to him and that Spirit would 'turn up the volume' on her.  Maybe this time she'd get it?  Maybe she'd move on and meet that great guy who is better suited for her? 
 
What is 'turning up the volume' and how does it affect our lives?  We all have lessons to learn while we are here on planet earth.  Whether it's stepping into our power, speaking our truth, feeling worthy, embracing love, raising children, dealing with illness, etc., we have all come here with an agenda that needs to be fulfilled.  Spirit is wonderful in providing us the people, the places, the situations, the locations, etc., in which we can learn these lessons and then move forward with our soul growth.  Sometimes we don't get the lesson the first time so it pops up again in the next job, lover, relationship, boss, friend, etc who comes into our lives.  Maybe the second time we still don't get it and then we don't get it the third time either.  Spirit will 'turn up the volume' each time by making this boss crazier than the last, this job worst than the previous one, this relationship even more disappointing than the last, this new friend needier than the previous one and this lover even more distant and unavailable than the last UNTIL we get the lesson. 
 
Along the way we struggle, get frustrated, get angry, get confused and swear off men, dating, relationships, women, friendships, work and LIFE until it goes the way we want it to.  This approach works for a little while, but there are those LESSONS to be learned and conquered.  When we meet the lesson head-on, we see how liberating it is to move forward.  We see how much of a blessing that job, boyfriend, girlfriend, marriage, relationship, broken engagement, etc., was and how divinely perfect the universe works.  When we finally 'get' that lesson, Spirit get excited.  "Ah!", there's a collective sound of relief from Spirit.  "She/He finally got it,  Yeah!  Yeah!  We're so happy for her/him!"  If you think things aren't humorous on the other side, think again.   All of you know how serious I am during a reading and yet, at times, my guides crack me up.
 
I don't think that 'turning up the volume' is a bad thing.  In fact, I think it is wonderful.  Spirit really, really want us to get our lessons, grow and evolve while we are here.  In fact, growing and evolving is why we choose to come here to begin with.  We've entrusted Spirit with our agenda and they are going to make sure we accomplish what we've set out to accomplish.  I like to think of Spirit as our cheerleaders and coaches on the other side.  They support us and at the same time cheer us on. 
 
I have a male client who is the nicest guy you'll ever meet.  Tall, good-looking, hard-working, dynamic personality, a warm-hearted person, a wonderful dad and the type of guy you'd love to have as a good friend.  What's his problem?  He has this attraction to blonde long-haired beauties that cheat on him and leave his heart in tatters.  His lesson is worthiness.  Worthiness of a deep loving, committed relationship and not being so attached to that relationship coming from a specific type of woman.  Spirit has turned up the volume on him two times.  The first time was when his first wife cheated on him and left him.  The second time was when his second wife cheated on him, but this time it was with a number of his acquaintances and friends.  To say he was devastated is an understatement.  He still hasn't recovered emotionally.  As he said to me, "It's different when you are cheated on and you don't know the person versus being cheated on and it's someone you thought was a friend."  Yes, turning up the volume can be painful.  In this case, he still hasn't gotten it yet.  He has recently opened himself up to dating again, EXCEPT, he's still got an eye for those blond long-haired beauties.  I've told him to date 'against his type'.  No blondes!  Try redheads or brunettes.  I told him that I could see a number of amazing women whom he could meet, date and have a wonderful loving relationship with.  Well what can I say - he isn't dating anyone seriously right now, but he does have his eye on a beautiful long-haired blond who will eventually become his girlfriend.  Yes, Spirit will turn up the volume even more next time in the hopes that he 'gets' it.
 
Often times we cannot see the forest through the trees or the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow because we are too blinded by what we feel is best for us.  This is action and behavior that comes from a place of 'ego'.  We should be acting and behaving from our connection with Spirit.  This is the reason why I encourage everyone to establish their own relationship with Spirit.  As we open up to Spirit and its infinite wisdom the path becomes easier, the lessons don't seem so challenging and the volume gets turned down - way down.  Our individual relationship with Spirit is both personal and private.  No two people carry on the same relationship with Spirit.  We all commune with Spirit in the way or ways we are most familiar with.  If you don't have a relationship with Spirit, think about beginning one.  Whether it's through yoga, meditation, the rosary, chanting, prayer, lighting candles, going to church, having an altar in your home, etc., it is the only relationship that will never disappoint you or let you down.  It is the only relationship guaranteed to bring you lots of joy and smiles.